Rachel says..

47 posts and two months later.. still no pretty layout!! haha

was so shocked to see so many posts since the last time i checked in, decided to move my butt and give an update.
work's been mundane. i dont even have internet connection in the office, i wouldnt have time to blog or msn anyway. bugger.

i learned something recently, about anger. was getting really irritated by some people in the office, esp one of my colleagues. and then she said something and i snapped. have you ever felt the kind of anger that bubbles inside your chest, making your arms and legs feel paralysed? yea it was like that. of course, being the good Christian i didnt yell, as much as i wanted to. bleh. and so i was trying to continue doing my tons and tons of data entry but i found i couldnt concentrate because i kept having these murderous thoughts. it was interspersed with "anger is not a sin, but acting on it is." i kept fantasizing ways i would get her back, and before i knew it it was time to go home and i barely got anything done.

today, i went to work, with the resentment still lurking just beneath the surface. so when that person annoyed me again, i could feel that same poisonous feeling rising up and up... but this time, i did something different. i said a prayer in my head, like "God take away my anger, let me do what Jesus wouldve done." the feeling didnt go away immediately. so i smiled at her, offered my assistance to something she was doing, all the while thinking to myself that i was such a hypocrite.

but surprisingly after that, it did go away. i tell you, i did so much work today i cannot begin to tell u how much satisfaction i got watching my stacks of data entry disappear.
we learnt this in tung ling didnt we?
forgiving is easy, forgetting isnt. but i'll choose not to remember.
just like God chose not to remember my sins.